Friday night and i'm alone in my room, feeling lonely and pathetic over myself. Am i really that bad? Don't i have friends i can find? Why am i being alone by myself tonight? What's wrong with me?
All sorts of crazy questions come to mind when you are down. I mean i'm almost rock-bottom down since the break-up, so i've been thinking lots of crazy shit for a couple weeks now. Emotional swing is the most prominent proof that i am not OK at all.
It's sad that this blog had become a place for me to vent out my frustration. This place was supposed to be a place to record all those good memories i had with Judy. And now what had it become? A pathetic emo blog. Maybe i should stop doing this. Maybe i should stay away. Maybe i should just let go. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.
Oh, how my heart longed for your comfort, how my body longed for your warmth, how my lips longed for your kiss. All too late now. Got to let do.
Jacob
Just remember that i will always love you..and do not forget our next-life promise okay? I don't want to lose you completely. Whenever i see u, i just wanted to kiss and hug you as much as you wanted as well. You're not a fool..we are fools.. Time is playing game with us. If we've met earlier, the story would not be the same.
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